Really, Lord? Are you sure!?

Over the last few weeks, we have needed childcare for our boy as my husband is venturing out into the work world from the house. The several months he has had at home with our Little have been good for both of them. Our little guy has been staying with friends from church, a couple of different families. They have remarked at how our little guy, now 21 months, is laid back, has a gentle spirit, and is a leader/helper.
I knew these things about him but it was quite different to have others notice.

I have been really impacted by this new life stage. We have a great responsibility in molding this sweet life. I knew that, but the intensity of this fact was not as strong until the father in one family pointed out what a great spirit our guy possesses.

It was then that I began to mull over my life choices. How am I molding him? What kind of man am I building his spirit into? Heavy stuff, I know. We are so grateful to have this little guy in our family. Yet my fearfulness is not easily assuaged. Will I/we be able to mold him into the man God wants him to be? Do I/we have what it takes? Lord, are you sure?

So, I will focus on the journey and make sure he knows I love him. I will so my personal work so that I don't become a hindrance to his growth. He will have lots of positive influences through family, both church and blood/adoptive. He will be pushed so that he needs to make the hard decisions while we have the ability and time to continue to mold him (rather than wait until he is a magic number and just throw him to the wolves). We will make sure he has the opportunity to come into contact with the easy and hard to love people and be encouraged to show love to them all. We have and will continue to cover his journey in prayer and love him as we want him to love others.

Our little ham

I am certain that there will continue to be uncertainty, fear, guilt, and insecurity. That seems to be the badge of parenthood. However, God gave us this precious boy and we will keep working to show him God's will and way.